I admit that i've totally forgotten the existence of this blog.
it was only when i was thinking of a name for building my portfolio on a site carbonmade.com, that i realised i had named something somewhere "my-marilyn-life".
And for that, I APOLOGISE MY DEAR BLOGSPOT! sorry that i've abandoned you with schoolwork and drama and alot of other crap erasing the very existence of you off the top of my mind.
but now that i'm here, typing something in this very box, i wanna share the past 9 months that i've neglected to let off from my chest.
to be honest, i used to blog to make my friends laugh and to keep others informed of the boring and fangirling life i used to have... oh.. i mean, am still having. my bad for being in denial for that moment :p
but now, i really wanna blog for the sake of remembering, for having a diary out here that i can go back to read whenever i wanna feel encouragement from myself.
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so well, these 9 months... :)
I fell in and out of love.
a secret that only a few loved and close ones know of. but now i'm letting it out because it's
My first love.
(ok, i know i'll read back and laugh at myself next time, hahahha i admit it, that previous line was really really really REALLY cheesy and cliche -_-)
(okay, to be honest,this post is gonna be emotional for me, and probably gross and hairstanding for you, so i'd advice you to stop reading if you're already getting goosebumps :p)
so yah. the best and most magical two months that i never knew and imagined to have. and i thank you for that :)
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I used to tease my sisters, and ridicule those american teenage love movies. but now that i've been through one, I realised.
It's really true that they say you revisit these places that you and that special someone had spent together, and there'll be a moment of flashback and relieving that beautiful memory you had there then. and these couple of months, i've had many of these moments.
I'm guessing that you'll not have them, because our moments together weren't as special to you as they were to me. but i still wanna thank you for letting me experience them, even for being able to remember them.
(being a capricorn, they say-)
"Once you've made your way into a Capricorn's heart, you're there forever".
So know that you still own that one special key to my heart
(omgokkkkkkomgomgthatwasreallyreallygross
didireallyjusttypedthatomgewwwwewwwewwwyucks)
hahahhahahaha ok. i kinda just woke myself up from that emotional and dramatic moment. hahhaha
so yea!
I wrote a song about this actually! and i've let one really special friend to listen to it and give me her opinion. I asked "should i send the song to my guy friend? do you think i should?"
she replied with a quote from her own lyrics:
"i don't think i'll ever have the courage to let you know"
You never know what might happen ;) "
So here i am. letting you know.
if you're reading this and you still haven't heard the song, it means i've never mustered enough courage to let you hear it.
if you wanna hear it? i'm just a text message away.
(or a phone call away if u wanna hear my voice? know what im sayin? ;) yah yah? *winks*)
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i'll post again soon :) i promise.
just a matter of how soon. haha
loves,
Marilyn
"if the world ends tonight, i'll grab my jetpack run and fly
finding my way to your windows to say-
thank you my first love"